human • kind: be both
“in front of my mother and my sisters, i pretend love is cheap and vulgar. i act like it’s a sin– i pretend that love is for women on a dark path. but at night i dream of a love so heavy it makes my spine throb– i dream up a lover who makes love like he is separating salt from water.”
— Salma Deera, “salt” (via virgoassbitch)
I know it sounds fake but you really do have a lot of silent lovers on this planet who look at you and wish they had your smile or your hair color or your humor or your intellect or your intentions or your heart, your manners, your eyes, your ease, even just you. People who are too shy to tell you what they admire about you or what they wish for you or who they see themselves becoming bc of you & they’re too shy to tell you. even tho it isn’t verbalized, the universe has still heard and the universe has loved you for helping out on its creations. You’re that person. You’re you.
i urge you to seek comfort in the fact that everything in the universe is subtly interconnected. it didn’t work out the way you wanted it to but you’ll end up where you need to be. keep your head up.
When you find yourself going out of your way to find a way to run into him, think twice. When you start stalking his social media accounts multiple times a day, stop yourself. When you’re unhappy and cranky because he hasn’t texted you all day, take one look in the mirror. The moment a boy consumes every part of you, from your actions to your emotions, is the moment you lose yourself. Going after someone always results in heartbreak, please try and let them go. The love you are looking for is shy, aware that you’re desperate. The love you are looking for will only come out when you turn your back, when you’re least expecting it.
note to myself
pursuitofhapppinesss
sea-ghosty
travel. your money will return. your time won’t.
ok but like just fuck rent and bills¿
